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Monday, March 31, 2014
It is well with my soul.
Recently, I decided to let go of someone who has become important to me over the course of the last 5 months. I haven't wanted to. I've resisted. I've tried to push the envelope and make it happen with him anyway. I've hoped and prayed and tried to pursue it in my own way and timing.
I keep forgetting that God is in charge of my life. He holds my heart first. I am His because no one else has sacrificed for me like He did. No one loves me as much as He does. He loves me!! All to Him I owe.
The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. The Lord has given me this wonderful guy in my life. I learned and experienced and fell hard for him. And it was beautiful. And now the Lord is asking me to let go. It is painful. But it is well with my soul. Because I believe that God loves me and His plan and timing for my future husband surpasses mine. I don't know much. I have no control over anything. God gives to me and I receive in a way that glorifies Him and when He decides to take it away, I must realize it was not mine to begin with but the Lord's. He is in control. I trust Him.
So I am letting go. I am giving it back, surrendering. Because I can't change that boy. I can't save him. That has to be God. I believe that God can do it. I believe that my God is a God of miracles. It might not happen on my time table or in the way I think it will, because I'm focused on my own pleasure and desires. But I'll keep praying because I believe in God's way above all and I want to be a part of the mission. I care about that man and I want him to have the joy, peace, forgiveness, and love that I experience from my Savior. Even if I can't have him in my life, I want him to know what it's like to be truly loved and the freedom and joy that comes from that.
"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
But, Lord, 'tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!"
I keep forgetting that God is in charge of my life. He holds my heart first. I am His because no one else has sacrificed for me like He did. No one loves me as much as He does. He loves me!! All to Him I owe.
The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. The Lord has given me this wonderful guy in my life. I learned and experienced and fell hard for him. And it was beautiful. And now the Lord is asking me to let go. It is painful. But it is well with my soul. Because I believe that God loves me and His plan and timing for my future husband surpasses mine. I don't know much. I have no control over anything. God gives to me and I receive in a way that glorifies Him and when He decides to take it away, I must realize it was not mine to begin with but the Lord's. He is in control. I trust Him.
So I am letting go. I am giving it back, surrendering. Because I can't change that boy. I can't save him. That has to be God. I believe that God can do it. I believe that my God is a God of miracles. It might not happen on my time table or in the way I think it will, because I'm focused on my own pleasure and desires. But I'll keep praying because I believe in God's way above all and I want to be a part of the mission. I care about that man and I want him to have the joy, peace, forgiveness, and love that I experience from my Savior. Even if I can't have him in my life, I want him to know what it's like to be truly loved and the freedom and joy that comes from that.
"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
But, Lord, 'tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!"
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