I keep forgetting that God is in charge of my life. He holds my heart first. I am His because no one else has sacrificed for me like He did. No one loves me as much as He does. He loves me!! All to Him I owe.
The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. The Lord has given me this wonderful guy in my life. I learned and experienced and fell hard for him. And it was beautiful. And now the Lord is asking me to let go. It is painful. But it is well with my soul. Because I believe that God loves me and His plan and timing for my future husband surpasses mine. I don't know much. I have no control over anything. God gives to me and I receive in a way that glorifies Him and when He decides to take it away, I must realize it was not mine to begin with but the Lord's. He is in control. I trust Him.
So I am letting go. I am giving it back, surrendering. Because I can't change that boy. I can't save him. That has to be God. I believe that God can do it. I believe that my God is a God of miracles. It might not happen on my time table or in the way I think it will, because I'm focused on my own pleasure and desires. But I'll keep praying because I believe in God's way above all and I want to be a part of the mission. I care about that man and I want him to have the joy, peace, forgiveness, and love that I experience from my Savior. Even if I can't have him in my life, I want him to know what it's like to be truly loved and the freedom and joy that comes from that.
"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
But, Lord, 'tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!"
I love you and I'm so glad you wrote this because I needed to read it. I was feeling a lot of fear and doubt last night but reading this reminded me that as long as I am letting go of things in the past and moving forward on the path God has created for me, God will take care of me. I miss you soo much ):
ReplyDeleteHello MIRANDA. So good to know you through your profile on the blogger. I am also glad to stop by your blog "Thoughts, Hopes and Dreams" and the post on it "It is well with my Soul". I am blessed to know you and go through your post. It is so encouraging to note how you have handled such a very emotional issue of breaking up with the guy. How sweet to quote what Job said " The Lord gives and He takes away" may the name of the Lord be praised.. It is good to see your spirit of forgiveness and your wishes of peace love and joy for the guy who has hurt you. Amazing spirit and this is from the Lord. Let me give you a promise verse from Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". Let me give you another promise Psalm 37: 4 Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart". Well Miranda I am impressed by your trust in the Lord and the way you have handled this issue of break up. May the Lord be gracious to you and bring in to your life a man of HIS choice. Before I finish let me share a program our church in Mumbai, India has of encouraging young people as well as adults from the West to come to Mumbai on a short / long term missions trip to work with us in the slums of Mumbai amongst poorest of poor to share the good news of JESUS CHRIST and to give them new hope, life and purpose. I am in the Pastoral ministry for last 35yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. we reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. We would love to have you come with your friends to work with us in the slums of Mumbai to be hands and feet of Jesus Christ to set the captive free and bring salvation to them. My email id is: dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon.
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